You’re gonna miss me…
When i am GONE…
I have so many friends…
But why do I still feel so alone…
For the first time in almost 17 years,
i got proposed by a guy, my best friend.
I dont know what i am feeling at this moment.
i am happy, confused, very worried and very scared.
If i accept him, he would be my first,
and i would be his first.
I dont know what to do…
He liked me since 7th grade,
but was not dared enough to tell me,
i noticed that in 8th grade,
so i started talking to him,
he is a very guy, i dont want to hurt him,
When i was in 8th grade,
He asked me if i would be his girlfriend on the day of my soccer tournament,
It was the first i had ever asked, i was happy, more than happy,
he promised that he would come watch me on my soccer match,
i told him that i would give him an answer on that day…
He didnt show up, and worse he told me he was joking me seriously,
Why? Because i was the closest girl for him in class,
i forgive him… i let it go. it hurt me so much.
But he never apologize…
8th grade passed by…
He ignored me for the whole 9th grade,
he think i dont realize that but i do…
i dont want to lose a good friend cuz of a stupid thing,
so i just talked almost everyday with him n his best friend.
Things get better this year., in 10th grade.
He talked to me again.
He started to message me like normal., since the end of August…
Today he called me, the first time in 2 years…
i was happy.
He called me 8 times today…
finally he proposed me again..
i dont want to fall in the same trap twice.
but i just want to believe in him once again….
And so once again i have broke my own promise of not falling for anyone….
I hope i dont need to regret this time…
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”
― Albert Einstein
Sometimes I forget
I’m not suppose to
Love you anymore…
“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”
― Dr. Seuss
To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.
To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.”
― Christian D. Larson, Your Forces and How to Use Them